Nice weather for ducks.

what a lazy morning
slothing at the computer.

at least the intelligent conversation
is keeeping me awake. :D

i wonder how this is going down.

when you wish upon a star.

ROFL,

How did some people on this earth ever turn out so retarded? Did the man above close his eyes and pointed out a few people and said "Thou shalt be socially retarded for entertainment's sake." ?!

-shudders.

Anyhow, hodgie podgies are on the way. Yay! Oh, and it's my last day on the job too! No more waking up early tomorrow... I shall wake up late, have a facial and go to the gym, taking my own blooooody sweeeet time. Some Macallan and interesting company for the evening and my day is complete.

Sounds like a plan. :)


"Desire is desire wherever you go...
The sun will not bleach it,
nor the tide wash it away..."

Eli Eli.

What's one to do?

Prolonged Anticipation has to amount to something, there's got to be some sort of finality to it.
Talking in riddles is excellent.

Lucky lips.

Traditions

Dear Diary,

Someone I knew vaguely (exchanged passing glances and a few words with) just hung himself.
He was a fairly good looking guy with a pretty girl on his arm. And he still did that to himself. What a shame, a complete waste of a life. Maybe I don't know better but perhaps he had problems in his life that he couldn't stand to be in this living world anymore? I guess we shall never know.

Still, these things scare me.

I do

Sleeping through the evening
singing dreams inside my head
I'm heading out
I've got some ins who say they care
and they just might
I'll run away with you
if things don't go as planned
Planning big could be a gamble
I've already rolled the dice

I spit and stutter stuff and clutter
worries in my worried corner
Maladjusted
Just untrusted
Rusted
Sometimes brilliant busted thoughts
Think I'll stay for a while
I'm intrigued and I'm
Red as a newborn, white as a corpse

I promise not to try not to fuck with your mind
I promise not to mind if you go your way and I go mine
I promise not to lie if I'm looking you straight in the eye
I promise not to try not to let you down

I am elated
I am all smiles invaded
in my man-bites-dog down
with a Spanish name
I'm all bone
I'm two tone
Red as a newborn, white as a corpse

I promise not to try not to fuck with your mind
I promise not to mind if you go your way and I go mine
I promise not to lie if I'm looking you straight in the eye
I promise not to try not to let you down
Don't let me down
...slow

Why you gotta keep the fan on high when it's cold outside?
Just wanna let you know that I'm still a fan- get it?
Everybody wants charm, and a smile, and a promise

Well, I promise not to try...

-Jake

O Brother, Where Art Thou?

It's been awhile! Rotting at work now. Couldn't get to sleep last night. I hate sleepless nights. Thoughts just swirling around in my mind. Can't get it one pointed.

Thoughts of old loves and new ones which haven't come to pass. I'm so internally disorganized. What can be done to concentrate on the present, the very moment i'm living in?!?!

Tough shit. It's like I close my eyes and my brain likens to an overflowing rubbish bin.

Maybe it was the excessive exercise I did in the evening? Hmmm.

Ah. I need to send in my uni application soon. Sociology? Psychology?

Absent friends, here's to them
And happy days, we thought that they would never end.
Here's to absent friends.
Little Jean Seberg seemed
So full of life, but in those eyes such troubled dreams.
Poor little Jean.Woodbine Willie couldn't rest until he'd
Given every bloke a final smoke before the killing.
Old Woodbine Willie.
Steve McQueen jumped the first one clean
But the great escape he'd tried to make was not to be.
Maybe next time Steve.
Laika flew through inky blue
'Til Laika neared the atmosphere and Laika knew
Laika's life was through.
Oscar Wilde was a lonely child.
He fought and won acceptance from the world.
They smiled, they laughed, they praised,
They drove poor Oscar to his grave.
Absent friends, here's to them,
And happy days, we thought that they would never end,
But they always end.
Raise your glasses then to absent friends.

-J.

OsteoEze.

I think I'm accident prone.

HAHA.

Anyhow, just something I've observed. Initially, one may be turned off by certain specimens of the human race, but after a break from interacting with them, they actually become quite bearable and in some instances even pleasurable to be with them.

Queer innit? And I don't think it applies to me solely, but goes across the board.

On a different note, I'm glad I finally got round to tailoring my suit for sis' wedding.

:D

Carpe Diem!
- Jake

Deception

The boredom in pandora's box is stupefying me. I could have been having a sandwich with Shuxian and gang but nohoho, I chose to attend this ridiculously dreadful make up class for the Internet and Web module.

The Vesak Day public holiday turned out to be pretty fruitful in its own uncanny way. I managed to be a gym rat from 2.30 pm till 7 in the evening, and then drag myself to Del Mar only because I intended to keep my promise to Jo and Idy. The 2-hour bodycombat special was spectacular and I couldn't ask for more. It was like a furnace in there as the condensation and mist formed on the glass panes, with the floor tiles being covered in... sweat. The dude behind me formed his very own puddle of sweat and I was pretty awed that he didn't trip. Inititally, when the other dude in front splashed his perspiration on me whenever he was hyped up or moved vigorously, I bothered to wipe his grime away. However, as the class proceeded into the 11th hour, it really didn't matter anymore.

Pardon me for the grotesque details of the human skin secretion, but here's something a lil' more interesting. At the Del Mar with Idy and friends, a dandy bunch of Europeans were having a ball of a time sipping cocktails, dancing and occasionally challenging each other to swimming races. All seemed pretty normal until this girl, who prolly had too much to drink, pulled out her friend's bikini top. They seemed extremely tickled and humoured despite the fact that their dear friend was topless in a pool with wondering foreign eyes. The shrill laughter and giggles only subsided when a burly Indian male employee decided to stop by and warn them that stripping was not an option in the Del Mar's premises.

I discovered a dark secret recently. It's the kind of hidden truths regarding a second lifestyle that you can't just share with anyone for fear of contempt or disdain. I guess I seemed impartial enough that my friend had no qualms telling me about the shocking truth. Its amazing how human behaviour can conceal so much and create a facade for the world. Just when you thought that religious sanctuaries were the light at the end of the tunnel if the world was an evil place, you thought wrong.

But of course, we are in no position to judge because our hands are often stained with the very imperfections that we were scrutinising at.

-Andrew